Friendship

So I'm a little fused with corn (confused.. corn fused ... fused with corn -- for all of those who had no clue). Maybe it's all in my head - ha - like most things; but I can't help but get aggravated over a certain friendship that I have.

I feel like.... like it's a one sided relationship. I feel like I'm expected to drop everything to cater to her needs, and yet when I need her - she's got other stuff to do. I've been going through this ... this ... well, whatever this is for a while now. Visibly struggling for something. People I never talk to and hardly know are asking me what is going on - but not my best friend. What the junk? I left her a message Tuesday night. I had had a particularly AWFUL day and rather than my usual, hey call me messages I said "I have had the day from hades and you always have funny stories so ... call and cheer me up." Do you know when I heard from her... this morning - THURSDAY in a text message telling me we have a wedding booked for October 4th.

Is that being over sensitive? I'm I expecting too much from one human being? I mean ... I am her emergency contact on all of her medical forms for goodness sake, but she can't be bothered to give me a call when I just need a funny Preston story? I don't know.... Just makes me feel alone. ha - more alone that usual. And I know that's not true, I know there are people out there who do care about me and would listen if I called... (wink) ... but that's just how I feel.

haha.. this is turning out to be one depressing blog there now isn't it. I think I'll dig through my closet and see if I can't find some older things that I have written and post them in here. Not today though. I've gotta get to work. I've camped out in my room until Dani left. She texted me tuesday and said "so, how bout i spend the night tomorrow" ... ooookay, what do you say. So she crashed on the couch and I hid out in my room until I heard her leave. lol.

Okay .. I gotta get ready. UGH... I DREAD today. I cannot take Matt any longer sitting in front of me. I swear he is the most negative person on the face of the planet. That's all I hear for 8 hours is how he hates his job, hates his customers, hates himself.... and no matter of trying to tell him different will help. I've stopped trying. So ignore him for your own piece of mind?.... yeah, then he gets mad because you are ignoring him. Aight ... here i go ... off to the working world.......